From the outside

It’s funny when you find yourself looking from the outside. That’s what happened to me during my vacation. I disappointed my friends, people that treated me impeccably right from the start. I had 20 whole days to spend with them and that’s what describes best what happened: “I’m standing here when all I want is to be over there…”

What happened to me anyway? I was so eager to see them all after a whole year away from them and when I arrived everything seemed that it would be great! Each summer we were going out together having too much fun, talking a lot and having parties in the woods where we danced the night away! It was all I could ask for to enjoy my summertime!

But as days went by everything changed… I watched my life from the outside... A life that I needed to live after the torturing year I had with my exams. But the clock struck midnight and someone else was living my fairytale… And I thought to myself wtf? It’s not like me to be isolated from the world and especially my friends, whom I can’t live without. My friends of course were worried about this sudden breakdown of mine and kept asking me all the time where I was and why I’m not with them, while last year we were together all day long. They also reminded me not to get lost but I didn’t seem to understand a single word at the time.

More days passed when it was nearly time to go home. Then it was that I realized I almost ruined everything with my unacceptable attitude and started wondering what comes next. Well, first stop was reapproaching phase. I knew it was gonna be difficult but no thing that’s really worth it, is supposed to be into reach that easily.

So, first thing I tried was sitting with them in a coffeehouse. I have to admit that it took them by surprise to see me standing in front of them but it wasn’t something I didn’t expect. All the awkwardness of the first moment disappeared as talking went by! I’m really glad I did this and that I recognized I’d been wrong all along, despite my tremendous ego…!

Next stop was the final summer party… That was the real challenge! But I had faith in me and my natural charisma for this one. Last day, last chance so we’re going all in babe, I thought. They say that luck is in favor of those who dare to challenge it… and guess what? It was exactly like before. Like nothing had preceded. A night that came out of a fairytale! In the end I was the leading actress of my life! The fairytale was mine again and none others’!

Finally, I returned home with wise lessons and promised I would never ever do that again to my friends. So, from now on whenever this incident is brought up, I won’t look back in anger!! xoxo

…by Marisa

People always leave

Writing has always been my passion! Ever since I was a little girl I’d been into books and dreamt of the time that I would write my own! Now that my dream kind of comes true, I want to dedicate this first article to a girl I never really got to know in person, but was meant to change my life for good. A, I wish you’re happy up there…

There comes a time in life when you realize people that used to be close to you are no longer there. People come and people go just as quickly. Certain are programmed not to stay for long but only help you out with something and after that they belong to your past, regardless the role they played in your life. These people may not be around you anymore but you know they’re gonna be there for you when you feel like needing them.

This is where fate gets involved… Some people are meant to be around you up until their “mission” is accomplished. And their mission of course is to help you with the things you’re occupying with this particular period. It could be something plain and simple, it could be something huge and complicated as well. Huge or tiny, important or indifferent, one thing is for sure: it’s gonna have an impact on you. These things normally happen without our understanding them. So, question is: are we careful enough to notice? As far as I’m concerned, I’ve always watched myself getting in and out of companies in a relatively short time period and therefore reached the conclusion that I myself may have become a person like that. As anyone has, consciously or not. Either way, the result remains the same as people always leave…

This was just a category of people that leave after their job is done. The other one –the saddest- is those who leave without any chance of ever getting back. Only the ones that leave for ever can never get back and everything else can be fixed in this life. Unfortunately, death is the hardest condition a person can bear. With a parent, a friend or a relative gone, everything seems different. Our world slowly collapses, we lose our faith in life and we consider everything unfair. The dominant emotions at the time are denial, sorrow, extreme pain and fear. Fear to the unknown, fear to a future without them, fear to changes. Inside us there’s a huge “why” following our footsteps everywhere we go. If something like that ever happens, it takes time to fully recover but even then the absence of those we love will haunt us.

But then again everything happens for a reason, they say. We may not have the strength to see it but even if we reach the bottom, there is turning back! Some day it will all make perfect sense, but until then we should be patient and endure everything that happens to us. An old quote says that the most beautiful things in life happen when we least expect them. And the most beautiful things are the ones to come… Besides one failure or disappointment doesn’t mean anything. On the contrary, it could lead us to the largest success!

Life is full of obstacles and “rain”. The key is to enjoy each moment and never lose the faith in ourselves.

Just remember to dream and wait for the sun! xoxo

…by Marisa

Hey, everyone here’s my blog!

Firstly, I would want to write a welcome note. Since it’s my first time to do something like that please don’t be too harsh on me! Well, I’m gonna publish little stories that have to do mostly with my experiences and with my attitude towards life. Of course I’d love to hear from you too, so if you like my articles, all you have to do is let me know! I’ m looking forward to your comments! Hope you enjoy reading :)

xoxo Marisa