From the outside

It’s funny when you find yourself looking from the outside. That’s what happened to me during my vacation. I disappointed my friends, people that treated me impeccably right from the start. I had 20 whole days to spend with them and that’s what describes best what happened: “I’m standing here when all I want is to be over there…”

What happened to me anyway? I was so eager to see them all after a whole year away from them and when I arrived everything seemed that it would be great! Each summer we were going out together having too much fun, talking a lot and having parties in the woods where we danced the night away! It was all I could ask for to enjoy my summertime!

But as days went by everything changed… I watched my life from the outside... A life that I needed to live after the torturing year I had with my exams. But the clock struck midnight and someone else was living my fairytale… And I thought to myself wtf? It’s not like me to be isolated from the world and especially my friends, whom I can’t live without. My friends of course were worried about this sudden breakdown of mine and kept asking me all the time where I was and why I’m not with them, while last year we were together all day long. They also reminded me not to get lost but I didn’t seem to understand a single word at the time.

More days passed when it was nearly time to go home. Then it was that I realized I almost ruined everything with my unacceptable attitude and started wondering what comes next. Well, first stop was reapproaching phase. I knew it was gonna be difficult but no thing that’s really worth it, is supposed to be into reach that easily.

So, first thing I tried was sitting with them in a coffeehouse. I have to admit that it took them by surprise to see me standing in front of them but it wasn’t something I didn’t expect. All the awkwardness of the first moment disappeared as talking went by! I’m really glad I did this and that I recognized I’d been wrong all along, despite my tremendous ego…!

Next stop was the final summer party… That was the real challenge! But I had faith in me and my natural charisma for this one. Last day, last chance so we’re going all in babe, I thought. They say that luck is in favor of those who dare to challenge it… and guess what? It was exactly like before. Like nothing had preceded. A night that came out of a fairytale! In the end I was the leading actress of my life! The fairytale was mine again and none others’!

Finally, I returned home with wise lessons and promised I would never ever do that again to my friends. So, from now on whenever this incident is brought up, I won’t look back in anger!! xoxo

…by Marisa